Respect

I am not sure why I go
perhaps it’s the blast of over excessive marketing
crap society announces about mothers day
what about the forgotten ones who no longer have one?
I’m afraid the mighty dollar rules over the human experience
each year I make that trip, it takes me longer to get to the cemetery
then I actually stay, when I drive through the gates a sense of peace over comes me
my body and mood transcends into a calm and beautiful phase.
The flowers are in full bloom, the grounds are extremely clean
It’s amazing how we live our lives and at the end we are reduced
to memories and a plaque with some dates on it.
will people remember me or even come and visit, I doubt it
my family unit has never been solid, it started with the foundation
I live my life to the best of my ability, I stay positive, focused and strong in at the end when I surrender my soul, I would also like to be cremated and placed next to my mother
So that’s why I go, I go out of respect.

Aquarius meets Scorpio

How come it feels like I already know you?
Is it possible to miss a stranger?
It feels natural, simple and relaxing to be around you
Do you believe in destiny, faith and power of attraction?
Would you welcome the challenge of the perfect union?
Would you show me the way a perfect love should be?
Would you wipe away my tears when I need you?
Will you encourage me and respect me like I would you?
Would you tell me about your day, good or bad?
Are you ready for your most honest relationship?
Do you feed off my energy, pureness and shyness
As I would fee of your confidence, honesty and self respect
Have you realized your needs are my wants
You made me realize that for years, my heart has been surrounded by imposters
And you made me forget about everybody before, like they were practice.
Until we meet again…….

A conversation with god

I have allowed society to bleed my soul
Is it too late to be on the correct path?
my inner voice told me it’s too late
I got caught up in cosmetic superficial things
it pushed me away from my goal of being
a servant of love, peace and hope
I live my life in hope as an example to others
some days it’s too difficult
and I wouldn’t mind if I didn’t wake up in the morning
however tomorrow is another beautiful day
and I look forward to it
I never really believed in you until I believed in myself
I found myself at the same time I found you
Did you do that on purpose?

Playing with Fire

From the moment I saw you, my heart was terrorized

I felt cupid smiling upon us and I gave you exactly what you were looking for

In an undiscovered moment, I gave you my heart

I am not sure if I handed it to you or you took it

I told you I saw your soul, you said you loved my spirit

Does everyone get memorized by your brown eyes?

I’m afraid my heart will always bleed for you

Silly me, simple fool how could I fall for a boy like you

I now realize that love is a game with you and it meant nothing

I could not make you love then, how will you love me in the future?

As you move on, remember me, remember us, and remember that first night with the rose peddles as we became one

Thinking of you and us in the future, I am playing with fire

In order to move forward, I will take this fire and burn that bridge

Good bye Little Sparrow

Good bye a million times over.

Karma

What comes around goes around they say
So why did we meet in the first place?
I have inspired you, confused you and question your heart?
You are baffled by me since you are use to thinking with the wrong head
Your genuine coy smile
Your Buddha shaped ears
I feel your energy, your honesty and your beauty
I now understand your thought process
you have no prior experience to associate with me
all I know is that you think to much and I talk too much
therefore you classify me as an oddity.
Why do you have to be so hard on yourself?
Stop thinking about everything and just let it happened organically
love nevery goes away, our mothers are so proud of us

Fabricated Love

I went roller skating the other day
it reminded me of us
I went around and around in a circle
it was pointless, just like us at the end
I gave you love and repaid me with infidelity
how could you love me, you don’t even love yourself
all those years, I still don’t know you
your entitlement, reality and sexuality is mystifying
I foolishly allowed this so called relationship
to eat at my soul, my mind my self respect.
I had to leave in order to keep these things
I’m walking away with my pride, a lesson in love and little regrets
you be surprised how hurt I am by our failure
even though you hurt me, I have no heart feelings,
I got my pride back and sweat independence taste so damn good
You will find somebody else to crown you.

Forgive me

I told you I didn’t love you
Perhaps I was just masking
my wounded pride, my emptiness in my heart
sorry it didn’t work out, I tried so hard
I seem to give and give while you took and took
looking back, I recognize these behaviors so clearly now
leave or be left is how it goes
I’ve been both, it hurts, it sucks
time makes it feel better but how could you forget
It’s funny how we are born alone
we die alone but in the middle
we search for love and tenderness.

Also dedicated to the boys I kissed from 1989-2007