Miguel

Standing at a busy intersection
I use to feel abandoned, forgotten & lost
People just passed me by
They glanced but never looked at me
everybody is looking for something
I just assumed we are all searching for the same thing
That true love that completes your soul
I now realize that the only person to do so is myself.
The last two years have been amazing
I look forward to more and getting older,
Getting to know myself, my true self, my complete self
We are all on a journey, within your mind is
your heaven or hell, I choose the light,
Happiness, health and peace within myself
It’s a beautiful experience, can’t really describe it
without getting emotional about it,
will you joined me?

My Amor

It’s timeless
It’s shapeless
It’s very exclusive
It’s a ball of indescribable energy
glowing, warm, comforting
It would make you feel undoubting loved, warm and complete
Without reservation, without regret, without a second thought
Only a selected few will see it in a lifetime
if it speaks to your soul what will you do?
Schedule an appointment, put it on hold or
assume it will be there in the future
great love come from great risk….

written 08/09

One In A Million

Soft spoken beautiful boy
“One in a million” you have been called
You know so much but haven’t been very far
You are street smart, is that’s enough to get by?
“you ooze with sexuality”
Silly man, look inside and see the person, their soul
A coy smile, a blushful grin, the spark in your eyes
Surprised you are not coupled up
People might think of you as common
However you feel in your soul you are
Destined for greatness with your humanity abilities
You come from the school of hard knocks
You have survived a chaotic childhood with zero role models
When you went through your self discovery last year, you emerged
confident and you became the creature you have always met to be
for the first time you are in love. in love with life.

Alone

The other day I was reminded I am alone
It was in an innocent way
two people talking and sharing
I revealed I was the youngest of 5 boys
“you must have a lot of nieces and nephews”
little did they know that 2 of my brothers are gone,
the oldest is detained and the other is just getting by
I look around at my generation and by now I should
have been partnered up for years, perhaps have a few kids
and even have that white picket fence
for the majority of my adult life
I’ve always found myself in a relationship,
my friends use to call me “the king of LTR’s”
and I was proud to carry that title
friends and dates seem to talk about the norm
of casual encounters and to this day I just don’t get it
I feel like I don’t fit in and I don’t belong
I refused to give in and go with the flow
I have to much self respect and self love
I am embarrassed with my inexperience with men
so this starts a new chapter in my life
I am preparing myself for the long haul
I am comfortable with it
I am leaning to do things alone and it doesn’t phase me
This will make me even stronger.
onger.

Heart of Hearts

In my heart of hearts
I made room just for me
for which only a place I feel
it’s my refuge of calmness, peace and shelter
it’s my gut feeling for my feelings towards the world
it only sees the good in mankind, the good in you
I believe we are all good
it’s the outside factors in society that allows us
turn in our kindness to self destructing animals
when I need reassurance about somebody
I think back to my heart of hearts and it gives
a better balance and I make the proper decision.

Perfect moment in time

Next time I see you and look into your eyes
there will be an unspoken acknowledgment
that will allow my soul to be set free
and I will kneel before you holding up my hands
presenting to you my heart in the center of my hands
making myself vulnerable but not afraid
because I love myself and I want to share this with you

Respect

I am not sure why I go
perhaps it’s the blast of over excessive marketing
crap society announces about mothers day
what about the forgotten ones who no longer have one?
I’m afraid the mighty dollar rules over the human experience
each year I make that trip, it takes me longer to get to the cemetery
then I actually stay, when I drive through the gates a sense of peace over comes me
my body and mood transcends into a calm and beautiful phase.
The flowers are in full bloom, the grounds are extremely clean
It’s amazing how we live our lives and at the end we are reduced
to memories and a plaque with some dates on it.
will people remember me or even come and visit, I doubt it
my family unit has never been solid, it started with the foundation
I live my life to the best of my ability, I stay positive, focused and strong in at the end when I surrender my soul, I would also like to be cremated and placed next to my mother
So that’s why I go, I go out of respect.