The other day I was reminded I am alone
It was in an innocent way
two people talking and sharing
I revealed I was the youngest of 5 boys
“you must have a lot of nieces and nephews”
little did they know that 2 of my brothers are gone,
the oldest is detained and the other is just getting by
I look around at my generation and by now I should
have been partnered up for years, perhaps have a few kids
and even have that white picket fence
for the majority of my adult life
I’ve always found myself in a relationship,
my friends use to call me “the king of LTR’s”
and I was proud to carry that title
friends and dates seem to talk about the norm
of casual encounters and to this day I just don’t get it
I feel like I don’t fit in and I don’t belong
I refused to give in and go with the flow
I have to much self respect and self love
I am embarrassed with my inexperience with men
so this starts a new chapter in my life
I am preparing myself for the long haul
I am comfortable with it
I am leaning to do things alone and it doesn’t phase me
This will make me even stronger.
onger.
